August 30th, 2006
I hate falling for straight women......it sucks. Does anyone know where i can buy 'Gaydar'? Because i dont own it.........
Concerning my crush.She will be called.......hmmm....... 'Miss Beautiful' for this story...
Ok. I had been crushing on Miss Beautiful for a couple weeks. I caught myself just watching her when she would talk or was concentrating on a sculpture or paper.....and im pretty sure she saw me staring a couple times....i couldn't help it. She is truely beautiful. Any ways, i would find as many excuses to talk to her or be near her, and we slowly became friends. Then......after about oh a month and harmless flirting(which by the way, she would flirt back...probably unknowingly...but still, it was there)I had decided to tell her. Well i lost my nerve and ended up writing her a letter...(yes I know....grade school techniques) So i slipped it in her purse and left. About a half hour later i got a text from her and such.... she said a bunch of sweet things and said she had to think about it and would get back to me.......then summer happened, and i hadn't heard anything from her. Now i went back to the school to pick up a couple sculptures and Miss Beautiful saw me and started a convo with me. Immediately all the emotions and feelings towards her came back three fold and i wanted to kiss her sooooooooooooo bad!!!! But yea. I got shy and quite and smiled way too much. But Miss Beautiful said that she saw this store that she thought i would love and said that she would bring me there. Then she said that she would call me. The whole time i barely said anything......I dont like how much power she has over my emotions already!!!!! GAH!!!!!!!!!! I wish i knew how this would end up......I was surprised she even had my number still......but at least she was thinking of me right???? Just tell me im crazy and she's out of my league and i'll drop the subject now........................
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: So Beautiful-Idina Menzel
Wow, what exactly did the letter say? If you don't mind me asking. Oh, maybe she's into you. You're lucky. The girls I like are TOTALLY straight and WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY outta my league. IM me at slashislove894 on AIM if you need any advice or need to vent
hmmm.....well it was kinda long...so im gonna summarize it for ya.
" 'Miss Beautiful', blah blah i'm not going to beat around the bush...blah blah, i'm just going to come out and say it. I like you. I think you are and amazingly talented and beautful person....blah blah....i'm not really expecting anything to come out of this beacsue as far as i can tell your straight. Tho sometimes i'm in doubt about that.....but then that could just be wishful thinking....blah blah....I just thought you should know....blah blah....I would like to remain friends with you and would appreciate it if you didnt tell everyone about this. It is strictly between me and you and I dont want to have to worry about your friends talking about me or confronting me when i walk by in the hall.....I dont think this will be a problem...but if it is then your not the amazing,kind hearted woman that i thought you were.....blah blah...If you could just get back to me on how you may or may not feel....(insert telephone number here) you can call me,text me, write me or talk to me in person.....just dont leave me guessing please? blah blah etc......"
Yea. I was going to use this as a last resort thing because i felt i could talk to her. but i could never get her alone, so i placed it in her purse when she was talking and scurried outta the room like a coward......like a half hour later she text me
|Date:||September 14th, 2006 11:02 pm (UTC)|| |
Awwww, that is so cute. She was nice about it too?
She reminds me of Natalya personality wise 'cause my friend Kymmi likes her and told her too and she was fine with it.
Did I mention I dislike Cheno's new hair? I don't give a flying fuck if it's for DS, I miss the extensions *cries and clings to leg*
PS: I love your Icon!mmmmm cheno!
Did you make it yourself? if so how or what program did you use? coz i have a couple icons in my head that i could like to make that would need to be flash or whatever its called. ;-)
|Date:||September 14th, 2006 10:57 pm (UTC)|| |
No, my friend Cali did. She says she uses Paint Shop Pro 9 and Animation Shop 3. I think those are paid for programs, but I am not sure. You can tell me what your ideas are though, and I can see if she wants to make any for you. (she's really nice with requests)